Fake a smile
Continue to hide the pain for a little while Buried deep beneath her skin Is a weathered soul wearing thin In the walls of her soul is a burden left untold In the chamber of her mind memories reside of broken promises and lies In the halls of her mind are questions and whys She fights this pain deep within The betrayal to her soul begins to wear her thin This hurt in her soul must end Her mind and soul needs to mend Broken deep beneath her souls surface She has let lies destroy her purpose Pain has scorched her like a furnace It has scarred her leaving thoughts of feeling worthless She fights to let the light in again Slowly she starts to mend She slowly starts to feel purpose She realizes she is not worthless She is able to breathe again as she rises to the surface Hidden my soul far away
Away from others so i will stay okay Hiding inside myself Trying to protect what i still have within I cannot let others destroy me and i cannot let them win Protecting myself until no one is around I built a wall so high that i myself started to drown. Buried within myself i became blind instead of saving myself i lost my mind. Broken now from hiding inside too long, pushing others away was wrong. Releasing the pain Learning to let others in, it is okay to learn to trust again Beaten and battered
Tattered and torn The day came that she could not take anymore Who she once was has now disappeared She faced her demons, she faced her fears Those who seek for her will not find who she used to be She broke who she was, she set herself free She became a new version, one you don't know Do not seek for who she was, for that has been let go Bruised and battered
It seems like nothing matters Inside I am torn and tattered Beaten down by lives trials I've walked this broken road for miles I have not felt well for a while Will life ever get better ? I am tired of feeling weathered I feel tossed and faded I have become jaded Will this broken road ever find light ? I need your strength to finish this fight Help me God steer me right because I need your help and your might In the still the storm rages
don't let your eyes gaze at it Instead keep your focus on the rock of ages pay no mind to the storm when it hits When lives storm comes crashing in lean on and trust in the one who is true the battle for you he will win and he will calm and comfort you Don't give in to the storm's threats keep your faith standing tall Remember the saving is his and he's not done yet he won't let your foot slip and or let you fall The storm may make it seem that you are on shaky ground But look to him when you feel like all hope is lost for he can be found he will carry and save you no matter what the cost So when the storm continues to roar keep your focus on God the one who won't let you down In the midst of the storm he will help you rise and soar Hold his hand and trust in him because he won't let you drown Is it just a phase
or is it really pain is it real or fake someone please tell me for my own sake Are these thoughts mine They suffocate me time after time Is this just a game Am I to Blame For feeling all this shame These depressing thoughts I cannot tame These depressing thoughts play in my mind No matter what I do they play on rewind They make me feel insane The thoughts make me feel maimed The thoughts they just won't go away All they do is stay These thoughts cannot be mine This realization in my mind chimes Could this be the time that I wake up and realize I am awake and I see the lies These thoughts are all the same These thoughts cause shame They destroy and maim These thoughts are part of the game The veil is ripped off and the truth is revealed The lies are exposed and no longer concealed The light at the end of the tunnel is shining bright No longer will I feel this torment throughout the night You feel depressed and broken down
You walk around with a frown You feel like no one knows you are around You feel like you are lost and cannot be found Deep inside you try to thrive but deep inside you are believing lies lies that say you don't matter the lies have made you torn and tattered Deep inside your soul feels shred all because the lies you have been fed At night you lay in bed You lay in bed and feel as if inside you are dead You don't have to listen to the lies choose to see them for what they are open up your eyes and look beyond the scars Remember that the light shines best through broken jars You may feel broken and alone but remember that is when Gods love to you is shown Open your eyes to the light and win this fight Choose these thoughts and this pain
or choose freedom and forgiveness and end this game I'm tired of this bondage and this blame In my mind these tormenting thoughts stay the same These thoughts and pain continue to rotate through my mind I reach for freedom, but end the fight with being unkind The healing within seems hard to find The freedom and healing is in my grasp but instead i let this pain rewind These walls in my mind continue to collapse and try to take my life i can choose forgiveness and freedom, but i fall deeper into strife I try to run and be free only to find another brick wall of pain trapping me One day I will break down these walls In my mind there will be freedom down the halls One day I will get up stronger when I fall One day I will be free of this all One day I will let you have it all Let you have all the pain I will let you tear down these walls One day I will be free and stand tall Today I will stand and forgive today I will choose to live Today I will let you make me free free from all these walls of misery When life comes crashing down and I don't understand
I reach for you and your hand Even when sickness knocks me down I reach for you cause I know you won't let me drown I reach for you and on you I rely because deep within you give me hope to continue and try you give me peace when life causes sighs you reach down and save me because you won't leave me to die I trust in you when I am too weak to stand I reach out for you and you lift me up with your hand you give me the strength deep within you help me to stand on solid land Your hand is reliable, solid, and strong I reach out to you and you lift me up when everything goes wrong you silence all my fears you take the pain and give me a peaceful song When all goes wrong I can rely on you you reach down and piece me back together like glue with your hand you heal me and make me new you are reliable strong, faithful, and true I can never live up to what you expect me to be
I can never be as good as you want me to be In your eyes I am worthless and you are always right this endless battle will always be your fight In your own eyes you cannot see that you are blind In your mind are nothing but lies and the truth you will not find You hurt others as your game of misery You want them to suffer like you but you are blind to this fact and cannot see Inside the walls of your heart has grown evil and dark You have become so blind now your path is stark You hurt others as if it were a game If your eyes do not open you will always be the same Open up to the evil path you have built around you Open up and change and let the savior make you new Stop the hurt and the blame For the power to change is only in his name Blaming others only makes things worst hurting others only makes the pain in your mind rehearse Stop the evil and allow God to be first Let him change your heart before the evil makes it burst Blaming and hurting others are not worth the pain it holds listen to God's word and do what you are told stop hurting others and forgive If you want happiness and peace this is way to live |
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