Fake a smile
Continue to hide the pain for a little while Buried deep beneath her skin Is a weathered soul wearing thin In the walls of her soul is a burden left untold In the chamber of her mind memories reside of broken promises and lies In the halls of her mind are questions and whys She fights this pain deep within The betrayal to her soul begins to wear her thin This hurt in her soul must end Her mind and soul needs to mend Broken deep beneath her souls surface She has let lies destroy her purpose Pain has scorched her like a furnace It has scarred her leaving thoughts of feeling worthless She fights to let the light in again Slowly she starts to mend She slowly starts to feel purpose She realizes she is not worthless She is able to breathe again as she rises to the surface Hidden my soul far away
Away from others so i will stay okay Hiding inside myself Trying to protect what i still have within I cannot let others destroy me and i cannot let them win Protecting myself until no one is around I built a wall so high that i myself started to drown. Buried within myself i became blind instead of saving myself i lost my mind. Broken now from hiding inside too long, pushing others away was wrong. Releasing the pain Learning to let others in, it is okay to learn to trust again Is it just a phase
or is it really pain is it real or fake someone please tell me for my own sake Are these thoughts mine They suffocate me time after time Is this just a game Am I to Blame For feeling all this shame These depressing thoughts I cannot tame These depressing thoughts play in my mind No matter what I do they play on rewind They make me feel insane The thoughts make me feel maimed The thoughts they just won't go away All they do is stay These thoughts cannot be mine This realization in my mind chimes Could this be the time that I wake up and realize I am awake and I see the lies These thoughts are all the same These thoughts cause shame They destroy and maim These thoughts are part of the game The veil is ripped off and the truth is revealed The lies are exposed and no longer concealed The light at the end of the tunnel is shining bright No longer will I feel this torment throughout the night Choose these thoughts and this pain
or choose freedom and forgiveness and end this game I'm tired of this bondage and this blame In my mind these tormenting thoughts stay the same These thoughts and pain continue to rotate through my mind I reach for freedom, but end the fight with being unkind The healing within seems hard to find The freedom and healing is in my grasp but instead i let this pain rewind These walls in my mind continue to collapse and try to take my life i can choose forgiveness and freedom, but i fall deeper into strife I try to run and be free only to find another brick wall of pain trapping me One day I will break down these walls In my mind there will be freedom down the halls One day I will get up stronger when I fall One day I will be free of this all One day I will let you have it all Let you have all the pain I will let you tear down these walls One day I will be free and stand tall Today I will stand and forgive today I will choose to live Today I will let you make me free free from all these walls of misery Buried in doubt
crushed in fear as i begin sinking in a sea that grows unclear the dark is all around deep in my soul what once was is hard to be found buried in darkness and lack of hope no strength left within to help me cope as i draw near the end of my rope faded strength and growing ill as my hope sinks i begin to kneel is this what i have come to, is it real all this hopelessness i begin to feel crying out through all my pain reaching out for help through this rain please help me give me hope to gain please once again make me sane Mangled by stress
in constant pain buried by doubt I'm going insane. Beaten down deep inside I've lost all hope and will to try my mind has grown cold and dark all my will power is frozen and stark My mind is buried in constant fear deep inside my walls grow near Only you can help me as my hope grows to tears Losing my mind not strong enough to try i reach for you cause only on you i can rely Save me from this constant stress save me from this wicked mess calm me and quiet my fear Take the pain and choke it down
fall to the ground with no hope to be found Dying slowly inside you fade will you make it? can you carry on like this another day? Feeling like you have sunken into a pool of regret you toss and turn as your soul begins to fret You reach for hope, but cling to pain hope is in grasp, but so hard to gain You see hope, but it is covered by a haze Your mind is trapped and lost in a maze The hope you reach for seems so hard to find inside is nothing but darkness in your mind The clouds can be cleared from your thoughts this battle can be won and fought Hope is not a figment it is real open up your mind and begin again to feel The light will come in the darkest of night so push on towards hope and don't lose the fight Your soul feels bruised and weathered
you think to yourself i can never get better With each cut you release your pain you feel it gives you peace to gain you feel for a moment it makes things sane you are trapped inside this game For a moment you begin to feel numb truth is you have sunken into a a dark slum Inside your pain begins to make you crawl as you cut the flesh your pain becomes exposed and raw You are in torment from all the thoughts your mind recalls Inside all the pain floods and flashes your pain bleeds out as you give yourself more cutting lashes Inside fantasy and reality clashes in your mind the pain dashes Inside reality flashes the razor, it is only giving you gashes you are awake to all your pain and you are slowly going insane Your bleeding does not release the hurt it only causes more harm and buries you in more dirt stand up and be alert You can recover from how you were wronged There is hope and a light to see you through Let go of this hurt and stay strong This pain keeps breaking me
This pain makes it hard to see This pain keeps bringing me down it makes me feel trapped all around The walls keep closing tighter Lord please take this pain and make my load lighter Taking all that is killing me within Please help me, my strength is growing thin Lord strengthen my soul Lord please make me whole This pain it is taking a toll Lord I am reaching for you Please take my hand and see me through My help it only comes from you Lord I know you will answer because you are true Sometimes being strong isn't an option anymore
Sometimes I feel like a pile of ashes left on the floor Sometimes I feel like a bird with broken wings who cannot soar I feel like I am lost in a dark room without a door I feel that I can't take this struggle anymore I feel like my heart is battered and tore Lord Please help me not to feel like this anymore God please take these ashes and restore please restore the peace I once had before Please God through your grace help my soul soar Please God cause I can't stand this pain anymore |
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