You feel depressed and broken down
You walk around with a frown You feel like no one knows you are around You feel like you are lost and cannot be found Deep inside you try to thrive but deep inside you are believing lies lies that say you don't matter the lies have made you torn and tattered Deep inside your soul feels shred all because the lies you have been fed At night you lay in bed You lay in bed and feel as if inside you are dead You don't have to listen to the lies choose to see them for what they are open up your eyes and look beyond the scars Remember that the light shines best through broken jars You may feel broken and alone but remember that is when Gods love to you is shown Open your eyes to the light and win this fight I fight the same battle time after time
I can't stop these thoughts that go through my mind Outside I appear to be fine but inside I feel like I am dying Inside I fight these battles that torment my soul Inside these battles stay and continue to go untold I feel like there is nothing left for me to uphold Inside I feel I am slipping and cold These Thoughts return and torment time after time If I told you I am fine I would be lying If I told you everything was okay I would be lying Truth is deep within I don't feel like even trying Time and time this battle I fight Time and time again I lose my sight I lose my sight of the path that is right Time and time again I fight to see the light Time and time again in my mind I crawl through this gutter of dirt Time and time again I rehearse my wounds and hurts I don't want to remember these hurts I want to stop but no matter what I do I fail and again my heart drops Deep within I know there has got to be hope for this torment within, there has got to be something to help me cope There has got to be a lifeline , something to help this end There has got to be something to help me win God I know you are there, I know you see me hurt I know you watch as I crawl through this dirt on my face I know you see my hurt and struggles, of it you see every single trace please help me stand and be free through your grace Sitting on the cold floor
sits a broken soul who cannot take anymore She hides in her darkness behind the closed door Buried within is darkness and torment so strong She counts all her faults and wrongs She won't be able to carry on like this for long All this hurt in her mind screams In her mind the torment gleams to her the only way out is death it seems Inside the chamber of her thoughts she has dug herself a plot In her mind these thoughts and pain can no longer be fought She feels this is her life lot In her mind her twisted thoughts dig herself a grave In her mind she can no longer behave She begins to think, "Do I die or live to see another day?" She searches for the bottle of pills spilled on the floor She thinks to herself, "I cannot take this pain anymore" She thinks, "Should I take my life and slam this dark door?" Buried in strife she begins to take her own life Before she can She feels something come over her that drops the pills from her hand This feeling she cannot explain out of thin air she hears a whisper call out her name She thinks to herself, "Am I going insane?" As she sits on the dark floor She feels a peace sweep over her that she has never felt before The pain in her heart begins to melt This feeling is unlike anything she has ever felt The peace overtakes her and changes her life The peace she feels changes her mind and makes her think twice The peace has caused her to not take her life She now has the peace she longed for in her soul She now feels her heart is whole Your soul feels bruised and weathered
you think to yourself i can never get better With each cut you release your pain you feel it gives you peace to gain you feel for a moment it makes things sane you are trapped inside this game For a moment you begin to feel numb truth is you have sunken into a a dark slum Inside your pain begins to make you crawl as you cut the flesh your pain becomes exposed and raw You are in torment from all the thoughts your mind recalls Inside all the pain floods and flashes your pain bleeds out as you give yourself more cutting lashes Inside fantasy and reality clashes in your mind the pain dashes Inside reality flashes the razor, it is only giving you gashes you are awake to all your pain and you are slowly going insane Your bleeding does not release the hurt it only causes more harm and buries you in more dirt stand up and be alert You can recover from how you were wronged There is hope and a light to see you through Let go of this hurt and stay strong |
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