I fight the same battle time after time
I can't stop these thoughts that go through my mind Outside I appear to be fine but inside I feel like I am dying Inside I fight these battles that torment my soul Inside these battles stay and continue to go untold I feel like there is nothing left for me to uphold Inside I feel I am slipping and cold These Thoughts return and torment time after time If I told you I am fine I would be lying If I told you everything was okay I would be lying Truth is deep within I don't feel like even trying Time and time this battle I fight Time and time again I lose my sight I lose my sight of the path that is right Time and time again I fight to see the light Time and time again in my mind I crawl through this gutter of dirt Time and time again I rehearse my wounds and hurts I don't want to remember these hurts I want to stop but no matter what I do I fail and again my heart drops Deep within I know there has got to be hope for this torment within, there has got to be something to help me cope There has got to be a lifeline , something to help this end There has got to be something to help me win God I know you are there, I know you see me hurt I know you watch as I crawl through this dirt on my face I know you see my hurt and struggles, of it you see every single trace please help me stand and be free through your grace Sitting on the cold floor
sits a broken soul who cannot take anymore She hides in her darkness behind the closed door Buried within is darkness and torment so strong She counts all her faults and wrongs She won't be able to carry on like this for long All this hurt in her mind screams In her mind the torment gleams to her the only way out is death it seems Inside the chamber of her thoughts she has dug herself a plot In her mind these thoughts and pain can no longer be fought She feels this is her life lot In her mind her twisted thoughts dig herself a grave In her mind she can no longer behave She begins to think, "Do I die or live to see another day?" She searches for the bottle of pills spilled on the floor She thinks to herself, "I cannot take this pain anymore" She thinks, "Should I take my life and slam this dark door?" Buried in strife she begins to take her own life Before she can She feels something come over her that drops the pills from her hand This feeling she cannot explain out of thin air she hears a whisper call out her name She thinks to herself, "Am I going insane?" As she sits on the dark floor She feels a peace sweep over her that she has never felt before The pain in her heart begins to melt This feeling is unlike anything she has ever felt The peace overtakes her and changes her life The peace she feels changes her mind and makes her think twice The peace has caused her to not take her life She now has the peace she longed for in her soul She now feels her heart is whole Buried in doubt
crushed in fear as i begin sinking in a sea that grows unclear the dark is all around deep in my soul what once was is hard to be found buried in darkness and lack of hope no strength left within to help me cope as i draw near the end of my rope faded strength and growing ill as my hope sinks i begin to kneel is this what i have come to, is it real all this hopelessness i begin to feel crying out through all my pain reaching out for help through this rain please help me give me hope to gain please once again make me sane Mangled by stress
in constant pain buried by doubt I'm going insane. Beaten down deep inside I've lost all hope and will to try my mind has grown cold and dark all my will power is frozen and stark My mind is buried in constant fear deep inside my walls grow near Only you can help me as my hope grows to tears Losing my mind not strong enough to try i reach for you cause only on you i can rely Save me from this constant stress save me from this wicked mess calm me and quiet my fear Take the pain and choke it down
fall to the ground with no hope to be found Dying slowly inside you fade will you make it? can you carry on like this another day? Feeling like you have sunken into a pool of regret you toss and turn as your soul begins to fret You reach for hope, but cling to pain hope is in grasp, but so hard to gain You see hope, but it is covered by a haze Your mind is trapped and lost in a maze The hope you reach for seems so hard to find inside is nothing but darkness in your mind The clouds can be cleared from your thoughts this battle can be won and fought Hope is not a figment it is real open up your mind and begin again to feel The light will come in the darkest of night so push on towards hope and don't lose the fight Your soul feels bruised and weathered
you think to yourself i can never get better With each cut you release your pain you feel it gives you peace to gain you feel for a moment it makes things sane you are trapped inside this game For a moment you begin to feel numb truth is you have sunken into a a dark slum Inside your pain begins to make you crawl as you cut the flesh your pain becomes exposed and raw You are in torment from all the thoughts your mind recalls Inside all the pain floods and flashes your pain bleeds out as you give yourself more cutting lashes Inside fantasy and reality clashes in your mind the pain dashes Inside reality flashes the razor, it is only giving you gashes you are awake to all your pain and you are slowly going insane Your bleeding does not release the hurt it only causes more harm and buries you in more dirt stand up and be alert You can recover from how you were wronged There is hope and a light to see you through Let go of this hurt and stay strong This pain keeps breaking me
This pain makes it hard to see This pain keeps bringing me down it makes me feel trapped all around The walls keep closing tighter Lord please take this pain and make my load lighter Taking all that is killing me within Please help me, my strength is growing thin Lord strengthen my soul Lord please make me whole This pain it is taking a toll Lord I am reaching for you Please take my hand and see me through My help it only comes from you Lord I know you will answer because you are true Sometimes being strong isn't an option anymore
Sometimes I feel like a pile of ashes left on the floor Sometimes I feel like a bird with broken wings who cannot soar I feel like I am lost in a dark room without a door I feel that I can't take this struggle anymore I feel like my heart is battered and tore Lord Please help me not to feel like this anymore God please take these ashes and restore please restore the peace I once had before Please God through your grace help my soul soar Please God cause I can't stand this pain anymore The strife in life is real
It torments the soul and makes it ill It kills the soul and with its pain it takes a toll The strife in life can take a toll It makes one feel like they are sinking into a hole The strife in life brings with it torment A torment that just won't quit Lives strife can cloud ones mind clouds ones mind until hope is hard to find It feels like darkness all around Darkness where one cannot be found Though the strife in life may feel like a trap There is hope to pull one out of the gap A hope that can set one free From the pain of lives misery A hope that is pure as light His name is Christ and he will steer you right In him hope can be found He will take away your strife and set you on solid ground A love so deep to you he will show through this love and his word he will help you grow grow to know and see that life is much better then what it seems to be In his arms you will rest assure That he can give a life of more A life of purpose and of hope A life filled with peace and strength to help cope The torment he will kill through his word he will help you heal In his love he will kill the strife he will make all things new and give you a better life Open your heart and open your eyes see the truth behind the lies and begin to realize He is stretching out his arm to welcome you take his hand and be made new In his love you will see what real life is meant to be it is no longer a mystery Life is meant to be lived with Christ receive his love and don't think twice He will pull you from the darkness of life He will give you hope instead of strife The peace he gives you never fades for hope is not found any other way Surrender you heart to the one who's true He loves you and will make your life new In his love he will rescue you Surrender all to him he will light the way that seems dim In his love he is seeking you out He cares and knows all about The pain you are feeling now Surrender the pain and call out his name be set free from all your strife and receive his eternal gift of life. Sometimes I feel like I don't want to try
But something within me keeps me alive the something within continues to revive my soul within and I don't know why The something within continues to win the battle of evil and of sin The something within continues to fight my own will power in order to help me do right The something within strengthens me to become stronger It helps me to not live for myself any longer The something within softly gives peace to my being The something within gives my life meaning The something within will change your life The something within will heal your strife The something within is no mystery The something within has made history The something within is the holy spirit from God above Receive his son Jesus and his love In his Love he will comfort you so now you know what to do For the something within is calling you. |
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